Well I know a lot has changed since I have last blogged.. even to the point that I dont even remember I had a blog spot .. but here I am back blogging about my life just because I missed writing ...
Well , now I am having a change of location ,a new member to my family and a lost identity ...

I have moved to a country far away from home to try to call the place London my home .. so here I am in this stranger land full of new people fighting to find my identity ..
Well for many days I fought it by saying that I lost it because I had a baby and was so involved in it that I had no time for myself ... but the truth of the matter is , you always have time for yourself .. you just need to find it ..
I digged deep into myself ,also parallely digging deep into the tons of bags of potato chips( thank you for all the extra kilos )  near me to find an answer ...
I did not know where to start .. hmmm I thought staring at my computer .. for days I tried hard to fit the role of a perfect homemaker .. I tried and made new receipes that I myself did not know what I put in... I cleaned the house with so many things to make it clean .. I spend so much time with my baby , that even he got bored of me .. and yet my pursuit failed

Then I thought to myself maybe if I fit into the crowd better I would find my place.. there I went shopping buying things I never would even go near ... I wore them on like a bodysuit to cover me and yet I felt lost ..

Next I did the ultimate task of searching online for my answers .. I went through lots and lots of confused people posting even confusing videos of what we should do ... only to leave me lost forever ..

Then I sat down and thought to myself . This is not what I like or want and who I am .. this is what others think I should be

So here I a at the end of a very long pparagraph still as clueless as I began .. Who am I

My search continues ....