Last few years have been a constant struggle in my pursuit to rediscover the lost me , who am I what do I need to do to be happy , why do I feel empty, I question myself everyday. Yesterday during one of my early morning awakening moments I said to myself , may be it is worth you jotting your thoughts down, so here goes the humble attempt on day one .
It has been ages I have been to drop my little one in school, seems a trivial activity but I really enjoy the whole being the first one he sees in the morning, getting him ready , walking to school , picking from school , in short being the mom . today was one of those rare days I got to do this and I totally enjoyed the moment while it lasted.
I am always one to stress out about everything ,to the point that I stress out if everything seems normal , sounds weird I know but it is a habit I have grown up with . I have always wondered why it is not easy for me to snap out and be positive, but I think childhood experiences have long term effects on you in ways you never realise it has and this too is one of them. I will leave the reason for another time. So from this perspective, I feel just this attempt to look at the positives in life is a big leap of faith for me.
Happiness for today
- Leaving and picking from school
- Having the extra half an hour of sleeping in esp on a Monday morning.
- Shutting the laptop at 5:30 knowing fully that there is no train to catch no escalators to run to be home.
- Knowing a friend daughter got into a school of her choice
- Knowing I dont need to stress about dinner on a monday morning as there is plenty of leftovers
- Telling my son over and over again that I love him so much , :) My favourite one!
I know these seems trivial in the grand scheme of things but happiness comes from little things and llittle moments like these , so let the work begin
Good night !
PS i am not proof reading this , as this is for me and only me :) so let the flaws remain !
