Gratitude 17.03.2016

Unfortunately this has been a rather bad day in my life since starting to write this gratitude note. And throughout the day as it got worse and worse I could not stop myself from thinking all the time, what will I write for gratitude ? Unfortunately I have failed to have any today.

Yesterday I felt like a total failure professionally personally and most importantly as a mom !
Yesterday's serious of events left me feeling extremely low about myself and me as a mother.

I am sorry but today I honestly cant think of anything

Gratitude 16.03.2016

Yesterday was again not very eventful work wise. I am still struggling to find any good people for the roles I am working and losing the moment is worrying me to be honest. But I am not giving up , I ll keep trying hopefully one way or the other something will come out of the hard work.

I am also working on sorting out my career and personnel objectives , I need to get my life sorted in a way that I am happy and peaceful and I am genuinely grateful for being here. It’s a long journey but I am surely making tiny steps towards it.

1.       Yesterday since Pranav did not have his dance class , we got to spend more time at home, I love the energy he comes home from school with. He chit chats nonstop and talks to me like a grown up about all the great things he achieved and did at school , and then he walks around the house asking for food , milk this and that just like his dad. I enjoy seeing how he acts being so mature when actually he is still just a little kid.

2.       Pranav and Anish sat down and made an aeroplane as an activity to do for his school.

3.       Me and him also sat down to do his math which I am happy with the progress we made yesterday. If only I get 2 days a week with him like this I would be happy with his progress.

I have notice that when Pranav is truly happy and content he comes to you and gives you a kiss out of the blue. Yesterday I received several of those and every time it melts away my stress and sorrows.

Life is still stressful but slowly I am learning to disconnect from it and not to let it affect my life. I am very happy with the progress I have made so far.

I am happy and grateful , Life is good. 

Gratitude 15.03.2016

5 days and going strong

I am happy that I have stuck to this for the last 5 days and I am hoping to continue.

Yesterday work-wise I did not have much luck or progression with the CV’s really drying out . I need to really find other ways to search for CVS as this one is clearly not good enough at the moment. Hopefully I am at a better position by end of week.

Go to know that the swimming lessons have been cancelled , though little bumped at the fact that the routine takes a hit , I am happy to have some time at home to relax as I really needed it.

Went straight to shop to get some groceries and unlike other times where we end up in the hotel ,we went straight back home to eat food from home, whats the big deal , people wonder, well I am trying really hard to ensure we as a family eat healthy, Indian and homemade. So far we have been doing really well at it. Ended up making  masala dosa with white and red chutney and sambhar , hotel style

Also got time to make a few curries and stock up which would help me for the rest of the week. Pranav too finished his dinner which for him is a big deal. So food wise a grand success indeed.

Finished a story book with Pranav in bed and slept like a log.

I do need to really improve productivity work front and I also need to seriously look into my sinus , it is becoming a bit of a pain for me.

But overall I am happy with the progress I am making so far , slowly but surely I feel like I am getting if not more positive, I am surely getting less negative day by day. 

Gratitude 14.03.2016

Monday after a weekend

This is for both Saturday and Sunday together , so the list better be long.

To be honest the weekend was not the most exciting for the major part of it.

·         Friday evening was a usual day of chit chats with friends and dinner and then a good Madhavan movie. The movie was very pleasant to watch and quite motivating.

·         Saturday got off to a slow start with some wonderful precious time spend cuddling with Pranav in the bed. This is the time I most enjoy with my son , relaxing in the bed listening to his imagination and his perspective on things in life.

·         Lunch was a usual Indian meal at home and then a rather uneventful evening. I managed to spend a few hours with my son to do his homework and do the book reading and also do a few maths challenge. Late night gave me and my friend an opportunity to take the kids out to a nearby café and followed by a never ending hours of chit chats and bearing the heart out session late into the night.

·         Sunday was the most relaxing day with extra time in bed and again lots of cuddle and talks , followed by a lull in my spirits and things going really downhill. I was indeed very worried that the major part of this day was spent in a rather gloomy way , until evening when I managed to scrape back .Evening Pranav headed out to a friend’s party and me to a girl friends chit chat, with hot tea and bhajji followed by a dinner with a friend and her little girl who celebrated her birthday.

This weekend I have come to realize that despite the lows in life if at least 50 % of your life is covered with highs , the memory of life at the end of the day is only about the highs and the lows disappear.

Overall I am very happy that despite the frequent lows , the overall weekend was positive and I am happy that I was able to move faster past the lows of life.

Overall I am happy and positive . 

Friday 11.03.2016 Gratitude

Friday 11.03.2016

Gratitude 

It has been three days since I am writing this and I have to say life is slowly but surely getting less stressful .But I guess it is too early to say that, I still have 18 more days to go before it becomes a habit. 

Yesterday started off with a horrible start at work with a candidate of mine in the final round of discussions with the client being rejected. I was devastated because I had a lot of hope put on this commissions. But anyway’s maybe it was not meant to be. 

I am happy at the way I responded to this bad news, in usual scenario I would take it quite personnel and would be grumpy for the rest of the week, but yesterday I chose to move past it as something I have very little control over. 

I went for my music classes yesterday evening, I am not a great singer I am not even close , but the sense of calm that singing brings to my life is something beyond words. I am really happy that I took the time out for this and I am sticking to it. 

Though I do believe that I need to rearrange my life a bit to be able to accommodate everything and also have time for Pranav, as I feel I hardly see him over the week. But I am working towards it. 

As usual I am always grateful to my husband for being a wonderful father and taking Pranav out for swimming, my wonderful friends for thinking about my son as their own and to god for the good health that he has gifted us all. 

Thank you for giving me a wonderful and happy life. 

  

Gratitude : 10.03.2016

Gratitude 

Yesterday was an ordinary day , nothing exciting besides the usual mundane work and household activities. 

After work I went straight to a friend’s place who has already picked my son from school , we had coffee and chit chat , and managed to de stress.  I honestly have begun to feel like home here now, only because of such wonderful friends who live nearby.

Went ahead and made some delicious dinner of Dosa and Kerala Egg roast and managed to clean my house and wash a load of clothes , for many this might look like not a big deal, but I am extremely happy when I have a clean house , and even if this is going to last only for a few hours , thanks to the super clean husband!! I am happy I managed to tidy up.

Pranav has been extremely well behaved and happy this week and much of it is due to the time he gets now with his friends and also all the engaging activities he gets involved in, there is no time for him to be bored or lonely. I would like to be able to spend more time with him studying which I am guilty of not having enough time now, but besides that I am very happy with how he has evolved into a mature young independent kid so far ..

I am happy and I am grateful for a wonderful family , good health and happiness. 

Gratitude - 3 minutes of a day, one day every day

Yesterday I saw Shawn Anchor's TED talk on the secret to happiness in workplace. It was a very interesting topic and especially relevant to my current scenario. 

As explained several times in the past, I constantly struggle to stay positive and while I succeed doing it for a couple of days when I consciously practice the same, I am always struggling after few days. The past couple of days were the lull after the good days of positivity. He said that being positive and happy increases your productivity up to 33 %. I am aware that as personally I am much successful at work when I recruit with a positive and happy mind than when I am low and negative. 

I know it’s all easy said and done and the tough part is to continue it as a daily habit. It takes 21 days to make a habit, so here is the plan. 

I want to spend 15 minutes every day at the start of the day to be grateful for 3 things in my life, maybe I will take reference to the day before. And also he said that you need to write thank you or recognise one person for the good thing that they do.  I am not sure how far I will be able to do this second part everyday but I will try. 

So starting today 

1. First of all I am grateful that I stumbled upon this video at the right time yesterday before my life crashed into a negative gloom , which to be honest I am tired of. 
2. I am grateful for having a very understanding and accommodating son and husband who despite all the fights we have make my life so wonderful. I am grateful for having wonderful parents and a beautiful sister and brother in law who ground me and make me who I am today. They are always there for my every decision.
3. I am grateful to have a job that I am relatively good at, paying me enough to buy the things I wish for. 

Thank you!! I do have a wonderful life.